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Apparently I am too lazy and distracted to actually do/finish things. Cases in point:

1. I went stand-up paddling with Naomi, which desperately needs and deserves its own fun blog post. I didn’t do that yet.
2. I ran a total of 19 miles this weekend, including a 10k race that fizzled a little. As a result, I spent some time browsing various runners/athletes/medical websites and talking to several people, some of whom freaked me out to the point that I actually tried to make a doctor’s appointment. I failed at that. I should also blog about it so I have it all in one place, but I haven’t done that yet, either.
3. There were bike races a few miles from my house yesterday, and I knew people who were going to be watching. I never made it over there!! I’ve seen those kinds of races before, and I KNEW how much fun they’d be. Yep, kicking myself for that one.
4. I finally decided today to go for it and sign up for an April marathon, because I know I’ll regret not doing it. I have no idea about my plans for next year, but the race is about to sell out. But as I was entering my information online tonight, my heartbeat suddenly felt bizarre and freaked me out. Yes, this is related to #2 up there, and yes, I’m overly aware of medical things right now, so I know I’m blowing it out of proportion. But now the registration site is just sitting there, halfway completed.
5. I recently got an idea for a book. It would be a kind of a memoir, which I know is cliche, but at this point I’ll take it. A friend said, “Write what you know,” and that’s still ringing in my ears (or in my eyes, since that was a text message). But, aside from brief thoughts while running, I have yet to actually sit down and ponder it more thoroughly.
6. I have a house full of food, but after work and running errands tonight, did I cook dinner? Nope, I got a sudden hankering for In-N-Out, and I GAVE IN!
7. I got a “grow your own tree” kit instead of a T-shirt at Saturday’s race, and I’m quite excited about it. I even have extra potting soil. And yet, I still haven’t planted the tree seeds.
8. I have an almost-finished book and others that I’m dying to read. But I’m not reading them.

So, that’s my current state of affairs. I can’t quite believe I’m about to click “Publish” on this pathetic, self-centered, failing-at-productivity blog post.